Growing up is hard to do.

I think that there should be a law about crying over yourself, it is stupid and wrong, and I don't like it.... it doesn't make me feel better, and it doesn't fix anything... but I guess that it does release emotion, and helps me to realize what I am thinking and am afraid of and what is important to me.
I think I am afraid of losing my best friend. And I really don't like it at all. What an amazing experience for him, but I am really really scared to be alone again, I am scared that I wont have anyone to talk to, or to go and do things with. I guess I will be spending a lot of time doing homework that I seem to not really be doing now. So that is good at least. Kinda..... I get impatient with people who ask.... trying to sympathize, but urg, it just bothers me. I don't know what it is..... This growing up thing is hard, and I can do it, I know I can, Heavenly Father gives me challenges which he knows I can overcome and triumph over, and learn from.
I went to the temple today, and it was so nice. It reaffirmed to me that I am loved, and that my Heavenly Father wants me to do what is right, and well, I think that I am going to have to go a lot more after the 11th- just to remind me of a few essential points.
No, all IS good at home. Mom and Dad got home in safety and I am really excited for the date that I have planned out for tomorrow, and school is almost over, and I have survived.... hopefully successfully. It is so exciting that Joey is headed out on his mission to Recife, Brazil in just a few days. We finished the Book of Mormon, with plenty of time to spare, and
well I guess that is all I have to say.
Growing up is hard to do.