Running, RUNNING, R.U.N.N.I.N.G.

Today has been a hard day. I left the apartment at 7:47am..... slightly late, and did not return until 11:13pm. I taught first thing, which went great, then to get a baby gift at the BYU bookstore, slightly frustrating but I am happy with what I ended up with, I was just grateful that they wrapped it for me, just one less thing to have to think about, 15 min later I was in MFHD 210 listening to the process and trickery of getting stats about children and their lives to determine the 'norm.' Immediately from there I discovered that Abby, the ever amazing girl that I know had her article running on the front page of the Daily Universe today.... I love her and think that is amazing. A minute later, no no exaggerating, I was in O Chem for a review - which I rudely ate lunch during as well as listening. Then in the O Chem lab for the next three hours. Then to teach, which this class is slightly more frustrating than the the other three sections that I have had to deal with - I think that a few people know more than me about certain aspects.... physics like things.... and it sets me off.... puts me on edge, and I don't perform as well. Oh well, that is life, I will have to learn how to deal with it, maybe it is just that I am just barely out of a 3 hour lab and don't have time to cool off after it. Then I was stopped by questions which then put me late for the next thing.... RAN back to the apartment, only to make it almost there because April luckily picked me up to head back to her place. Got there and immediately taught piano, then dinner was waiting for me, April is amazing, and I cannot believe that she can get to everything that she is obligated to, I guess I still need to learn that trick. Then helped clean-up/get ready for the baby shower, that was nice, non-thought provoking, and so I was glad to sit down and calm down a bit. Then on the way home, getting gas, and back again. It just, well - I have a lot to do yet and not very much time to do it in, and don't quite know how or what I should be doing with my life. It seems like at times I don't really fit in. I do. But, it is easy to lose yourself. I have never thought about suicide, but I certainly enjoy singing "I Am A Child Of God" in the car by myself, it is soothing. So, I don't know how, or what I am going to get done by the time that I need to get it done, but I guess I just have to keep going. Keep running. I am going to go to bed tonight, because I don't think that I can take anymore, even though the stuff needs to get done. But you know what?!? It is alright. I will and I can. And the busy-ness is a good busy. I am doing things that I love, I am improving myself, and I will find my place soon enough. Now only to keep my integrity and be 100% honest with all those around me, I guess we are still working. Good luck to you all as you no doubtedly have a million and a half other things that you yet need to get done.