Feelings

Amazing how your mind can go from one moment in a teasing mode to the next in defense and hurt. And how you could find the excuses to blame all those around you, but in the end realize that it is your own fault for over reacting. I guess all we can and should do is to remember the council of 3 Ne 11:28 and 29.
I don't know, I have watched as my family has been walked over by others throughout the years, and am torn between how it is that we are supposed to forgive and not be walked over again. We had a lesson on forgiveness in RS a few weeks ago about this and well, I wasn't content with the response I don't understand how it is that we are supposed to be able to do one without neglecting the other. And well, I have always thought that forgiving is more important than not being stepped on, and that is what it is we are supposed to learn all our lives about forgiveness, but maybe not. When you put in a BIG sinario such as abuse and try to learn this lesson, you KNOW that the victim HAS to get out of there and HAS to make it so that they are not in that position, and THEN they need to forgive. But how do you get out when it is the people that you love, how is it that you defend yourself against something that maybe isn't meant to hurt, how do you still maintain those relationships that are necessary for happiness and progression?
I have no answers today, just lots of questions. I guess I will have to learn this one through each experience that I have. And for now I can only take the 'evidences' that I have taken part of, and know that I need to relax and not take as much offense. I guess I have some of Dad in me because I am thinking like him and well, in all the accounts that I can recall I have removed myself from the situation. Anyways....
I love you all, miss you all, and hope that all is well.