Questions

What motivates me? What is it that I want to improve in my life? What would make me happier? Am I productive with my time? Do I do everything that I should? Am I taking the right steps toward the future that I want in the end? I question myself.
I don't know if I am doing the right thing, there are times when I know that everything is in place and right, and then there are times when things seem off kilter. I don't know where my interpersonal relationships went. I miss having two-way friendships. I miss people who tell you their problems and their joys and the things they learned that day. I miss laughing and doing fun things just because. What have I done differently? When did I change? When did everyone else change? I don't like taking on the role of being the only one who tells about the problems and issues, and feelings, and emotions, and joys in life. I don't like the role of only listener either. I don't want to talk to people only because they want to hear about the 'gossip' in your life.
Maybe it is because I read my friend's blog, and because I hadn't read in awhile I was catching up, and she mentioned two things that hit home for me - all of the people in her life, how they influenced her and the role they played in her life; and then her concerns, her questions, wondering if she is short-changing herself. Both got me thinking, am I doing that as well? Have I made the most out of the blessings that Heavenly Father has given me?
Well, I have no answers, but there you go, my thoughts for tonight.